It was a sad Sunday for me.
Being woke up by Gerald’s morning call and I accidentally receive this bad news.
Gerald won’t be coming back to Kk in December.
My heart instantly scattered and my eyes tearing up.
Only at this very moment I Realized how much I have been missing him all this while.
I have been anticipating for the arrival of December because of Gerald’s coming back.
I guessed that is the main reason why I do not feel tired about having extreme busy and packed schedule everyday now.
Until eventhough my body worn out few times, I have not much feeling about it.
Because it made me feel that time flies and my countdown days will be over even sooner.
I felt like the sky has drop down on me when my countdown days have to postpone to another 6 months.
I feel so weak. So exhausted. So wanna give up on everything I am doing now.
I have a Zumba Christmas party later in the afternoon and I don even feel like dancing anymore.
I wanna just sit eat and sleep. So hopeless feel.
Obviously I have been expecting too much until I felt such huge disappointment.
I suddenly have the urge to fly directly to Plymouth to spend the Christmas with him.
Hate that the fact that I don have the money to do so.
Oh God why did you put me in such test :(