After almost two years.....

Why?

Why now?

Last year after my birthday, you wanted to meet me. I rejected.

Last year after Christmas, you wanted to meet me. I rejected.

After New Year, you wanted to meet me. I rejected.

Before Chinese New Year, you wanted to meet me. I decided to give you a chance.

You said you wanted to meet me because you have something to tell me.

Honestly, I somehow can guess what you were going to say.

Afterall, there's only two possibilities.

If you want to meet me, sorry I won't drive to your house.

You will have to come find me.

What's the point of meeting me but you have nothing to say?

I thought you were the one who has everything to say to me?

First, you talked and asked about my daily life. (okay, no comments, we'll just start by chatting like friends.)

Second, you gave me a box of biscuits you brought back from Penang. (thanks, my mum love it she finished the whole box.)

Third, you suddenly lend out your hand in front of me. (what was that suppose to mean? you expect me to put my hand there?)

Fourth, you hugged me when I show no response to your action. (don't expect me to fall for you again, I'm actually disgusted.)

Fifth, you asked for a second chance to mend & continue our previous relationship. (sorry, I don't want to get back to those life.)

Sixth, you asked me if I'm confirmed with my decision. (well actually, you were whispering that time I cannot even hear what you were talking properly. I just ignore and say NO to everything.)

Seventh, you said SORRY when everything gets awkward and send me off. (why say sorry now when it's already after 2 years?)

Seriously, I felt stupid for a moment there.

I was actually expecting more, like reason for why you left me 2 years ago.

I don't need your sorry, I just need to hear the reason.

I never knew the real reason why you left me hanging in mid-air 2 years ago.

People said you were with another girl behind me, I choose not to believe it until I saw those statuses and photos in facebook.

You were just the same like the first one.

I'm glad that you taught me the "never giving up" and "independent" spirit back then.

But from what I recalled, you were also the one who have taught me not to give a second chance to the same guy who is not loyal.

You said "he who knows how to disloyal for the first time, sure knows how to disloyal for the second time".

I will always remember this line of words.

I might be cruel but I cannot trust you anymore.

Seeing your face always reminds me of the pain you gave.

Don't say sorry to me now, I don't need it.

On second thoughts, I don't need to hear the reasons as well. No point.

Thank you for the short memories.

Thank you for teaching me some real life lessons.

Second chance for our previous relationship? Not a chance. I'm already gone.