[Music #] iKON - Love Scenario

Taken from the album "iKON - Return"

[Toughts #] Running Away to a Land Far Far Away

Sometimes, I really feel like running away from this place that I have always been at 

for the past 30 years.

I'm blessed with a family, a lot of good friends, and a decent life.

But still, there is always a part of me which is feeling dark and lost.

A glimpse of pain and emptyness.

Am I not happy?

I always doubted if I have depression and anxiety being burried deep down inside

at the corner of my heart.

I would cry silently in the middle of the night without a reason.

I would tell myself that I always have the power to change my story everyday.

Go and do something that makes you happy.

Life is about loving yourself more.

Is it true that I have been loving everyone else except myself in the past 30 years,

Until I started to feel the exhaustion. 

Where is everyone when I needed them?

Or have I been locking myself out from the world for the past 30 years?

Or was it that I have been putting high expectations on myself my whole life?

But reality keeps knocking me down giving the disappointments again and again?

Perhaps I just need a short break from the world,

Cut myself away from all the humans and dramas.

Practicing the wonders of Meditation, 

Which is defined as a practice where an individual focuses his / her mind on a particular object,

thought or activity to achieve a mentally clear and emotionally calm state.

One day, I want to run away to a land far far away called "My Paradise".

"PARADISE" - Coldplay

When she was just a girl

She expected the world

But it flew away from her reach

So she ran away in her sleep

And dreamed of 

Para-para-paradise,

Para-para-paradise,

Para-para-paradise

Every time she closed her eyes

Life goes on, it gets so heavy

The wheel breaks the butterfly

Every tear a waterfall

In the night, the stormy night, she'd close her eyes

In the night, the stormy night, away she'd fly