A bored Awal Muharram public holiday

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE THROW AEROPLANE ON ME!!!!!!!

what a bored pathetic public holiday , all thanks to my canceled form 6 gathering plan! ARGH @.@~ hated it so much when I had to cancel everything at the very last minute....

I still remembered back a few weeks then, everyone was so excited upon hearing the plan....as we havent seen each other for quite some time, especially all of us were in different places, and now most of us are back in town for the holiday! what a great opportunity to meet up don you think? They joyfully asked me to plan for the most anticipating gathering since I was the class monitor and actually cant wait for that day to arrive!

My classmate Helmey was the first to propose the plan to me, and I agreed to come up with something for everyone.....She told me that she will definitely show up no matter what, and she will be the first person to confirm me of her attendance~ When everything were set and planned, I happily informed everyone from 6A1 about it, and asked them to confirm with me whether will they attend the gathering as I need to know how many people can actually showed up~ In the end, I have 7 confirm candidates, and a few not sure~

The night before the gathering, I received a SMS from Helmey which goes like this : "Grace sori, I rasa I x pegi tu gathrng la bsok. si pet x dpt pi sia pun x pi la, ks cncl sia sma mylyn pnya nma" I was like @.@~ I hate people canceled the plan at the very last minute, not to mentioned, just because of the absent of another friend. Damn sorry, the reason is not acceptable and that was when I told myself, I wont be planning and holding anymore form 6 gatherings in the future~

It was a public holiday that day, I actually had invitation and plans for other things, but then I chosed to reject everything just for this form 6 gathering. And yet, this is how it ends up?! You all were the ones who were so excited about it, asked me to plan it like a free order, and then cancel everything with a lame excuse just right at the very last moment?! Can't you all think of my damn feelings huh?! I just hate people doing so! USE YOUR BRAIN SUCKERS! Darn it, I hate to admit but I damn hate hate hate everyone for the moment there! I was so pissed I even switched off my damn phone and don wanna see any of the SMSes that were coming in after that..... The rest even suggest to postpone the whole thing off as they wouldn't be feeling the funness and joy with just a few persons.....FINE! THERE WONT BE ANOTHER PLANNING FROM ME IN THE FUTURE I CAN ASSURE YOU THAT!~

F*ckin SESB

OI?! WHAT THE FUCK?!

It was the third consecutive day my office went black out! SWTZ! what the hell is wrong with SESB?!

I was so pissed off when all my hard-works on typing those documents went zero because I didn't manage to save it, especially when it went black out all of a sudden! ARRRRGGGHHHHH~~~It's already the third damn fucking day and things were still the same, what's wrong with them huh?! Same time same place every single day, do you know you are interrupting my work?! ARGH~ not to mentioned, HOT!!!! in such a bright shiny day, you make me SWT when I am working~ damn hot~ as my office room doesn have any window~ T.T

I don't understand wat seems to be the fucking problem, but I am pretty sure I am pissed off with the situation like this~ it makes me thought of Namewee who went to TNB and scold everyone of the workers there~

Well, people stopped to work when the electricity went out; but I continued to work in hot condition as the office have generator to generates electricity~ too bad it's only enough to generates the computer printer and fax thingy~ the air-con doesn on at all, and I was forced to work in sweating condition! walao~ so uncomfortable~!!

What the hell?! life still has to move on..............................................

Migraine makes me pain pain pain~~

Migraine is a neurological syndrome characterized by altered bodily perceptions, severe headaches, and nausea. Physiologically, the migraine headache is a neurological condition more common to women than to men.

The typical migraine headache is unilateral (affecting one half of the head) and pulsating, lasting from 4 to 72 hours; symptoms include nausea, vomiting, photophobia(increased sensitivity to light), and phonophobia(increased sensitivity to sound). Approximately one-third of people who suffer migraine headache perceive an aura-unusual visual, olfactory, or other sensory experiences that are a sign that the migraine will soon occur.

Initial treatment is with analgesics for the headache, an antimetic for the nausea, and the avoidance of triggering conditions. The cause of migraine headache is unknown; the most common theory is a disorder of the serotonergic control system.

There are migraine headache variants, some originate in the brainstem (featuring intercellular transport dysfunction of calcium and potassium ions) and some are genetically disposed. Moreover, fluctuating hormone levels indicate a migraine relation: 75 percent of adult patients are women, although migraine affects approximately equal numbers of prepubescent boys and girls; propensity to migraine headache is known to disappear during pregnancy, although in some women migraines may become more frequent during pregnancy.

If you wondered what migraine is and how did it actually feels like? I guessed the above descriptions can let you have an imagination of migraine.

I first discovered myself with migraine was a few years back, when I was 17 years old. I don't have a clue of what is happening that time....I was sitting inside the church, when all of a sudden my visions were blurred by the disturbing light of aura~ I thought something went into my eyes as I was sleepy that time....the sense of aura became stronger and the disgusting feeling of it became so strong it makes me felt sick instantly~ Every sound around me, either it's the homily or the prayer by the priest, and even the voices of the singing choir makes me felt even sicker!

I was like, what the hell is happening? this is getting not normal~ I tried to fight back all those awful torturing feelings~ I try rubbing my eyes, and closing it for a few times, but nothing seems to take away the aura nor the nauseaness~ things got worse when the church service came to the holy communion part as we have to stand and kneel continuously for a few times...I started to felt like puking and vomiting~ sounded like a pregnant lady huh? ==" I fight back as hard as I can and try to overcome those disgusting torturing awful feelings~

There was a couple of times I almost ran to the toilet cuz the breakfast I ate that morning had reached my throat, but I only swallowed it back down~ *yuck* After about 20 - 30 minutes~ the light of aura started to disappear but the nauseaness still stays~ Just right after the aura was no where at sight, the pain started to attack~ you have to feel it yourself to know the pain~ it's undescribable with words.....and the pain is so much different from the usual headaches.....

I felt like someone had just shot one side of my head with a gun~ the pain only attacks one side of the head, and the pain was excruciating~ I can't stand the painful feelings anymore, I dropped when I was in the car~ My mum realized my painful expression and tried to ask me what's going on....but even the slightest sound and light felt like adding the nauseaness and the pain level of my head~ I finally rushed to the toilet upon reaching my grandmother's house! After vomitting, it felt much lighter and better~ felt like half of the nauseaness had left instantly.....I get a short nap right after that....

When the same thing occured for the second and third time, my mum brought me to the doctor. The doctor diagnosed it as migraine....that was when I found out my mum suffered from migraine as well when she was young....it only disappeared after she was pregnant with me.....I was like @.@ what kind of sickness is this?! the longest migraine pain I suffered was three days~ I can't really remembered when was it already.....But I was sleeping most of the time for the three whole days in my dark + no music room~ It was so serious I vomitted everything I consumed for that three continuous days~ The blurred vision and nauseaness never really left my head, cuz as soon as it left, it came right back when I opened my eyes~ I even miscounted how many times I vomitted for that three days~ So I refused to drink even a cup of water....All I ate was "ham moi" and my mum even made me "ham moi" drink to reduce the uneasy feeling~ It was the worst one from all the usual attacks, I have to swallow the strong migraine pain killer tablets everyday for that three continuous day~

Now~ after years....the attacks has become normal and I am used to it already....I prefered not to take any medication for it, even the pain killer...So all I do was "fight the awful feeling" everytime it attacks.....I don wan to be dependable on drugs so much cuz it surely will affect my antibody and the capability of enduring a pain....it will attack once every month....just a week before my period~ gosh~ hormones are highly related with my migraines, not to mentioned, the genetic issues as well.....My friends were all so worried about me when it attacked, I still remembered I always vomit in the class back then, especially during exam~ It always shocked my whole class of friends every single time it occured and my condition actually made them got worried as well....since SPM will be coming soon~ After we graduated from form 5, not only I was known as the "ketua tingkatan" but also the "vomit princess" LOL!!!

My friends always jokingly told me to get pregnant soon, as my mum's migraine sickness disappeared after she was pregnant with me~ so it makes me wondered everytime.....will it really be gone from me one day later? Or do I have to suffer from it for the rest of my life? Will this continued to be passed to my children in the future?

Bao bao is in town!

Date : 02/12/09

Bao bao is in town! *happy*
but only for one and a half short weeks~ *sad*

As I will be working on weekdays, the only time for us to meet is only on weekends. With just one and a half short weeks, we hardly even met actually~ I went to get a wedding gift for a fren who will be getting married on the Second Sunday....there goes the first Saturday.....but we did met each other on the following day which is Sunday.....guess where we went? Yes! there's no other place than the place with PIU and DDR~

If you were wondering who the hell is my bao bao? she is my soul mate whom I knew since form 1 of secondary~ Until this very day, We have known each other for 8 years~ we share almost the same favourites and passions..... but the one thing that we had the biggest passion together was dance~ all we do was only DDR and PIU.....LOL~

DDR stands for dance dance revolution and PIU stands for pump it up..... Where else if it isn't Centre Point? back in our secondary days, we used to hang out at Wawasan every weekends.....we were so addicted to DDR by then I don't really remember who discovered it first.....maybe I got influenced by her friends who were pros in it....XD

It's always down to DDR business everytime we met each other....but lately since I got in touched with PIU, our directions moved from DDR to PIU......both was great.....but I enjoyed PIU more than DDR.....XD~

Anyway~ other than dance thingy, of course we have other crazy thoughts in mind....we were always fooling and playing around....I still remembered what I did on Chinese New Year day a few years back....I lost in a mini game and ended up shouting nonsence outside her house~ ==" Thank goodness no one recorded it! So, what are we planning to do this time? Her lil brother Jason followed along to KK this time, and it was my first time to meet his brother....he's cute but noisy! So we decided to take silly pictures and photos, with the help of Jason~ My brain is always not in it's right direction, you can say that those wires in it were mis-placed and mis-attached~So when I am normal everything just went from silly to crazy.....When you see me with my serious face + non-smiled + less talking condition, you will find that something happened and I am in the abnormal state....hahahaha! what kind of expression is this?! RAWR~XD

06/12/09 was our day! first I caught her playing PIU alone! LOL~ nvm, I am not so addicted to it then....then we managed to SS ourselves in the toilet when she get herself changed~ Since Jason was bored, we decided to walk around the centre and get tonnes of silly photos without bothering anyone who were shopping and walking around us! Ah hahaha~ KK Plaza? Oh I missed that place as well, Jason never been there before? Come on let's go!

There's always only one reason for us to head to KKP~ yes you are right, non other than PIU~ hahahaha~ *faint* but to our dissapointment, Sarah's leng zai and bao bao's semi-leng zai were there playing PIU~ Haha~ be sure to stay tuned if you are curious about this two guys~ I was like "OK, we aint getting a single chance for it" so all we do was hang around + watching them dance + taking silly photos + playing spam the token with Jason + secretly taking videos and pictures of the leng zais = wasting our time?

After that, we decided to go back to centre since time is running out.....A place where we always sit for makan and minum = Hawaii Cafe....ahh~ back to the olden days~ I missed you so much bao bao! Time flies when I was with her.....we haven't done many things together but when it comes to the time, GOSH~ it's already time to head home....since I can't drive yet, I have to follow my parents' car....usually they will head home at 4pm, so it's only a little time we had for the day~

12/12/09 was the day she had to catch her flight back to KL.....we didn managed to spend so much time together since I am only free on weekends....so I decided to spare some of my time today and went to her house in the morning around 10am.....I was actually planning to take a short video together with her....but something else came up upon reaching her house....cuz it was quite noisy as Law and Jason were there~ Haha~ next time then....talking, chit chating, playing around, eating lunch...and then it was time to leave at 12pm....time really flies @.@ I really missed and treasured every single precious moments of us~ wondered when will she be flying to KK again....probably it's gonna be my turn to fly to JB instead?

=The last month of Year'2009=

January...February....March.........June......and finally it comes to December....

what do you know? the last month of the year!! it's finally here....I can't believe 2009 is coming to an end....

It has been a short year.....I wondered what makes me felt like that....but it's a short year this year.....everything just happen in a blink of an eye and *poof* all's over! Ask me how has it been? I will show my answer with a graph and you will clearly see that it has been a bumpy year for me....

Let's do a lil flash back through the year....but probably I cant really remember every little bits and pieces that had happened.....cuz some of my brain functions has somehow blocked parts of it I guess? *alasan*

January'09 =
It was a happy first month of the year....Chinese New Year is at the end of the month....and I received my first bonus after I started working! Great! time to go shopping and everything a girl's does! I spent some of my friends and family....I get my hair perm! this is the first time I am doing perm! and the results was pretty! I loved it! Chinese New Year this year was not as happening as years before as my grandmother passed away a week before CNY.....my dad was even sad this time compared to my grandfather's funeral a year ago.....I met my long lost uncle in the funeral which I havent met since more than 10+ years ago.....Reunion dinner during CNY is more quiet than ever~

February'09 =
Month for the couples....14th Feb is the one day all couples are waiting for and that's when I first met Yang......it's the first time I having lunch with a bunch of single guy frens.....and actually received gifts frm them....you all are so sweet! went to Kent's birthday bash at Cempaka Sqaure during the night....first time going in a karaoke pub sort of place....first time drinking chivas.....and went home for the first time at 3am! Thanks to Ah Loon who drive me home~

March'09 =
Calvin's birthday is up! went to play roller bladding with him during his birthday....and it was my first roller blade.....it left a dark scar at my left ankle which I think will not dissapear.....it's still clearly seen even til this day.....we went to Water world the next day.....it's my first time going to Water world.....and I do not knw how to swim! swt~ this is the month where Yang actually asked me out for lunch for the first time.....and it's also when I accidentally met Jonathan who is Xiao Pei's boyfriend......an unforgettable accidental meet up I will never forget....
April'09 =
The month where my love story started....met with my form 6 classmates after not sure for how long....I got my white Vincci watch from Yang on Easter day....went to Tanjung Aru on 19th Apr after 10+ years.....and got my hands held by a guy for the first time by the sea...everything was so sweet and I like it when everything took place at the beach which is my favourite place to be! walked together by the sea and have our first picture together taken.....I met his mum as well! which was really fast! Audrey's birthday was at the end of the month, thanks to her we had a great dinner by the sunset~ and that was when I share my first kiss with Yang.....the sweetest month of the year~
May'09 =
I made sushi for the first time for Yang....it's our first month old together...and he loved it...great! and it's the first time we share our sunset walk by the beach after work~ it was sweet....First time went to the animal park in Lokawi! although it's not as big and nice as those in peninsula but it's still a place for family in Sabah....First time went to Kundasang! It was a really pretty place!! I loved it so much I was thinking to come for a stay here at the year end....the air was naturally cold which was awesome! I got a positive feedback for my job interview in Mamee-Double Decker, YES I am changing my job!016-8302870 & 016-8302871, it was the numbers that I picked for days just for the both of us....wow~ i cant believe I am actually using postpaid for the first time~
June'09 =
I started LCCI lvl 1 part time in KCC....cant believe I really took up account course.....My last month in Kadar Mobile S/B....Having fun and fooling around in the office the whole time....shop for formal clothes with Yang...i cant believe I'm gonna wear formal clothes to work after all.....Last time celebrating colleagues' birthday together in KMSB and last time dealing handphone's work with bosses,colleagues and staffs.....a farewell to my crazy work life~

July'09 =
Started my new job! It was hard in becoming fully independant at everything....i have to do,face,deal,solve everything at my own now.....got a nice new boss~! breakdown for the first time in front of Yang~ things went out of control between us we almost break up~ Went to Sutera Harbour Sunset run with Yang and it was the first year I had a partner for the run! Went to Salut with Yang, Jojo and Xiao Pei~ I don like seafood and this would be the first time I am eating this much of seafood I guess....I received the second gift from Yang which is a teddy~ I love it!
August'09 =
Irean's birthday and I was invited~ went to New Emperor's Restaurant with Yang...I took up driving lesson and went to the KPP class....cant believe I am learning to drive FINALLY!.....I was asked to attend a company training in Malacca....it would be my first time boarding an aeroplane....I was so noob in the airport! First time leaving Sabah and first time being in peninsula and of course....first time in Malacca! ate their famous ball chicken rice which taste so good even when I hated chicken rice so much~ Packing the old office and the company is moving to Towering! didn saw Yang for a week and we actually break up on 31st August~
September'09 =
The saddest heart breaking month of the year~it's my first major break up~ everything just went apart..... Do we really love each other? or am I the only one who love him so much? He try to fix things up but end up breaking my heart twice.....it's over~ all my friends from every direction of the earth suddenly appear and give me the strongest support ever~ his birthday was in this month and everything that I had in mind just vanished....I still wanted to see him so much! Memories and events keep flashing back no matter where I went....I have sleepless night everyday, all I see in my dreams is him, my tears can even reach or more than 1 litre~ my appetite went from 100 to 30~ drastic changes in my daily routine made me changed throughly~

October'09 =
My birthday is up and I have done nothing for preparation! After a killin' month I realized I put down a lot of things and doesn really care what happen around me anymore.....Start making myself busy with everything I do....start going for facial treatment....planning and inviting for my up coming 21st birthday dinner~my shopping month....I turned 21! and it's the first time I received so many gifts in just one night! Thank you all!

November'09 =
LCCI examination is here and I think I wrote crapz on my answer sheet.....Saw a very pretty white tourist ship by the harbour~ it was so nice from far I bet it's nicer from near~ it's the first time I sat at the first row watching a movie in a cinema....once is enough because it's damn suffering!
December'09 =
The bussiest month of the year! I have so many things to do....and so many things to plan! gatherings here and there...calling up people and meeting up~Bao bao is back in KK!Yay~ time to get crazy and have fun~ Hobbycon2009 is here! but too bad I didn take part in it!Weddings are everywhere~ apparently love is in the air~I got my review on work and I finally finished my probation! Christmas month! totally many programmes and activities up lining for this year's christmas~ First time joining Lui Kim Chock's yearly christmas party, going to GCC's new auditorium for the christmas celebration, counting down to christmas on christmas eve, one borneo day with mum on christmas~ Got my hair dyed for the first time! start having driving lesson! Counting down to new year 2010 on new year's eve night!
I hardly felt any days and times in the year 2009.....felt like it has just flew by just in a blink of an eye! Am I getting old? people always said we will feel time flies when we are getting older~ good memories and bad ones? all were in year 2009.....I had a lot of stories.....and not to mention, tonnes of experience.....thanks to what had happen throughout the year....it changed my thinking, made me grow up, and certainly made me know more about the outside world and human relationship.....things are not as simple as it looks like out there.....you are not living alone on the earth but with people all around you~ No one is perfect so don't expect people to be 100% at all times....people tend to do mistakes and that's how we learn~

2009 started with happy and sweet days.....ended with sad, heartbreaking and bitterness was felt~ Let's try to forget and let go of all the unhappy events....keep all the good ones....memories will always stay and the pain will recover soon....I hope 2010 will be a better year for me......and hope that it brings me new hope and luck~ Gimme back the confidence and trust in myself! Time to reborn and restart my life!

I'ma crazy about Twilight!!!

"Marry me Bella"

Just one short line with three words is enough to make every girls in the cinema screaming....LOL~And I was one of them.....haha...I'm not screaming actually....I was just getting super excited in many parts of the movie....

I didn't watch the first twilight in cinemas....cuz back then I am not a frequent movie goer....and I missed most of the movies at all times.....I came to know about the movie when I saw the trailer.....but I cant recall where I saw it....so after the disc was released, I got my hands on one.....and I cant wait to go home and watch it...LOL~
"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"

It's the famous line from the first Twilight and I loved to repeat it over and over again myself...haha~Just in case you were wondering what is Twilight.....well,it's a romance story originated by the famous novel series written by Stephenie Meyer....and was being made into movie series by Director Catherine Hardwicke.....The main casts for the movie are Kristen Steward, Robbert Pattinson and Taylor Lautner....

What is so good with Twilight that makes it the blockbuster hit of the month? honestly, I have no idea but it's a good story....obviously, all the girls around the globe are crazy about this movie....first is because most girls like romance stories and secondly, the guys in the movies were hot!! LOL~ either it's Robbert Pattinson or Taylor Lautner, it gets the girls screaming for nothing..... and every girl just wished they were Bella.....
New Moon was more exciting than Twilight first series.....it is more action-packed and heart touching.....I actually cried in the cinema watching New Moon....as some part of the storyline reminds me of my sad love life.....I saw my own shadows in Bella.....I knew how heart breaks felt and it actually struck my heart while I was watching the movie...It was as if I were her, feeling every bits and pieces of pain..... Then come Jacob who shows his sexy abs in the movie....OHHHHHHHHH I just loved guys with hot sexy abs!

After falling in love with hearthrob Rain and Tae Yang, who has nice abs and dance sooooo well, Jacob would be the next example...does he know how to dance? I wondered......Anyway~I loveee Edward as well.....he has taken my heart away since the first series of twilight...they way he protects Bella and his cool style...I just loved it all~~argh~~~ getting crazier and crazier about twilight I even edited some pictures and put it in one of my photo album in facebook....I cant believe some of my frens had actually seen it when I am posting it secretly....damn they are good.....LOL

Anyway~ Twilight movie series is a must watch! I have been waiting for twilight new moon for a year and I was actually so excited when I went to watch it with Irean on premiere night....haha! the ending of new moon was more exciting than ever and now it kept me anticipating for the next one....TWILIGHT ECLIPSE....which is expected to released in June 2010....I cant wait for it!!
P/S: Robbert Pattinson is filming a romance film "Remember Me"....be sure to catch it when it is released in March or April 2010~!~! I am waiting!!

A new look~

Everyone is going short!I wondered......is the "short hair wind" on the loose?
P/S: (Yo Girl frens of mine~I borrowed some pics ya...LOL~)

More and more of my friends are getting hair cut...and they are going short!It makes me wanted to get one for myself as well....but for all of you who know me well.....sure knows that I don like myself with short hair....I had short hair when I was small....but my hair has never get any shorter after primary 4.....@.@ and it could be daring to get short this time...LOL~

It should be a challenge...LOL~ and I have no idea what will I look like after the hair cut....I remembered thinking to go short back in form 5....I told my "ji mui gang" about it and they are anxious to see me in short hair as well....as they had never seen me in short hair before....cant even imagine it as well....after that particular weekend, they only saw me with short front hair....and all of them asked "what happen with the plan?" and I said "you know wat happen in saloon yesterday?I went there and I told myself I wanted to try getting it short for once. But once I stepped inside and sit on the chair...I looked at myself in the mirror....I was like 'I can't do it' and end up telling the guy that I wanted my front hair short only"...*swt*

I have always loved my long hair....it was thick black and wavy.....I tried perming last year and the results was pretty...now I loved it either it's perm or rebonding....as long as it's long....LOL~lately,seeing all the girls around me going short....it makes me ponders about it.....I liked to change my hairstyle every year during CNY.....from ponytails to bangs, wavy to straight to perming.....What do you think I will look like in short?