~Heart - Breaker~

Why? why do u have to find me again? That's the one question I was thinking when u called.....

He called one Friday night and I thought something happened.....He was here downstairs my house, and it was the first time we met in year 2010......I asked him what was wrong and he said he just wanted to find someone to talk to.....

O-k-a-y..........then I guessed there's nothing serious going on then.....well, we were still frens even if our previous relationship doesn't worked out.....so, okay let's have a brief chat then....all went well at the beginning....but I started to notice some awkward atmosphere not long after that....he started to touch my hair, like he used to....cuz I loved the way he "sayang" my head before this...I acted like normal and continue to chat.....but I found out that we do not have much conversations to talk about....it's only more to asking each other's life and me listening to his stories.....not enough, he still hold my hands....like he thought he can hold it whenever he wants it?? Darn == I just let him did it as I don wanna start up any quarrel now.....I am not even in the mood for anything.....and before I left, he even hugged me and said "I miss your scent"~ P-L-E-A-S-E S-T-O-P D-O-I-N-G T-H-A-T!!!

Maybe he thinks that I really missed him so much, he could do those little things when we were together.....sometimes, I wished I didn went down and see him.....was it a mistake? I thought that conversation was nothing but an ordinary chat between friends? I was surprised when he said he will come and fetch me tomorrow after church finished, just like he used to....I was so puzzled, I asked him why? where to go? he just said he will bring me to a place.....and said no more....not forgetting to ask me to bath early, dry up my hair after bath, and sleep early.....yea yea, you guessed it right...just like he used to before~ =.="

Things are getting weirder and awkwarder on Sunday, after church, the only conversation in the car was "have you eaten?" and "no"~ DURH?! I started to think what is the purpose of asking me out today and not even saying a thing? and he's kinda acting weird I must say....or I should be saying all of this things are taking place today is kinda weird....I wanted to ask him what is actually going on, but he just seems to turn the topic away.....okay, fine~ I don wanna argue anything~ after breakfast at Damai, he brought me to pool since it was STILL EARLY~ @.@

WHERE? WHAT? WHY? WHEN? I saw more and more question marks popping up on my mind.... when it was time, we went to a place near Chiu Thai Seng~ I guessed it was a place of his friend, the people inside were having beauty course which includes skin therapy, skin analyze, skin talk, body therapy and everything....my face changed dramatically when I reached the entrance....he pulled me inside and asked me to fill in the form.....to leave my contacts so that they can find me in the future and pour many crapz thingy on me?! I DON THINK SO!....I cant believe he brought me here....I knew I have toad's skin, but do you have to do this?! I hate it so much, and I specifically hate people who looked at my face and say "I have to right solution for you" I HATE THAT SO MUCH FOR YOUR INFORMATION! IT WILL PISSED ME RIGHT OFF AND YOU DON WANNA SEE THE CONSEQUENCE OF THAT~

I was in my worse mood then, I looked at him straight and said "I don wanna fill in this kind of things, I wanna go out and leave this place, come let's just go KK"~ he doesn looked good on the face himself as well.....his smile dissapear in an instant~ I couldn care what he said after that, gave him back the form and walk out~ he followed as well, and we were back in the car.....I was so pissed already and yet he still said "I am so dissapointed of you, why is it so hard to just fill in the form? it does you no harm"~ FUCK DAMN IT~ JUST WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO INTERRUPT MY LIFE RIGHT NOW AND ASK ME TO DO THIS AND THAT?! THE LEAST THING WE WERE WAS FRIENDS! I DON NEED YOU TO GUIDE ME OR EVEN ASK ME WHAT I WANNA DO! PLEASE BE CLEAR THAT I AM NOT YOUR GIRL ANYMORE SO STOP WITH THOSE FUCKING INTIMACY ACT! HOW DARE YOU SAID YOU ARE DISSAPOINTED OF ME?! WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO SAY SO?! MY LIFE IS NOT YOUR BUSINESS ANYMORE SO WHAT IS THE POINT OF DOING EVERY LITTLE THING LIKE THIS NOW?! WHY?!?! IT'S TOTALLY USELESS AND THERE'S ISN A SINGLE POINT OF DOING SO!

I kept myself in silence all the way until KK, he said a few lines of words that I don't even enjoy listening, I was getting pissed and pissed, I knew I was going to burst out shouting and screaming like a biotch anytime~ I closed my eyes and hold me fist tight, trying to calm myself down, the last thing I don wan it to happen is to have a quarrel with him....luckily someone is waiting for me in KK~ he helped to released my anger and ease my tension~ thanks~

YOU WERE THE ONE WHO CHOSE TO END THE RELATIONSHIP, SO STOP TREATING ME LIKE I AM STILL YOURS WHEN EVERYTHING WAS LONG OVER~ DON MAKE ME HATE YOU WHEN ALL I WANNA DO IS TO KEEP THE NICEST MEMORIES STORED~