"I've told you to let me come with you......see what happen?" it was the first thing Aifer said when I sat into his car....durh~*pathetic me* 03/09/09=Feeling so pathetic....I didn't slept well the whole night again last night....*sigh* why is all this happening i wish someone can give me an answer.... "Okay punya la, got me and your fren June here today, you sure okay punya" I was not in the mood for talking....I hardly talk and my eyes were damn swollen...I had to wear specs again today....==" our destination today was K-BOX....actually I intended to find a place to sit and talk the whole night....but we end up hanging around in K-BOX.....
At first, Aifer try to cheer up the atmosphere and make me forget everything for a moment....
Backstreet back alright~ everybody yeah~ yeah~ rock your body yeah~ yeah~ everybody yeah~ rock your body yeah~ backstreet back alright~
i will follow you~ follow you wherever you may go~ there isn't an ocean too deep~
staying alive~ ha ha ha ha ha~ staying alive~
I~ had a picture of you in my mind~ never knew it would be so wrong~ why it take me so long just to find~ a fren that was there all along~
After some crazy odd songs, it's time for me to sing along....guess what? all sad songs are out.....
再给我两分钟~让我把记忆结成冰~ 记得你叫我忘了吧~ 记得你叫我忘了吧~ 你说你会哭不是因为在乎~ 这感觉已经不对我努力在挽回~
终于看开爱回不来~ 而你总是太晚明白~ 最后才把话说开~ 哭着叫我留下来~
能不能给我一首歌的时间~ 静静的把爱变成永远~ 我要控制我自己~ 不要让别人看见我哭泣~
外套脱掉脱掉~ 外套脱掉~ 上衣脱掉脱掉~上衣脱掉~
爱你不是因为你的美而已~ 我越来越爱你~ 每个眼神触动我的心~
忘了是怎么开始~ 也许就是对你~ 有一种感觉~ 忽然间发现自己~ 已深深爱上你~
I finally cried when I sang "all or nothing" by O Town~ Aifer was stunned himself cuz it's the first time he sees me crying.....before this, I am always known as the TOMBOY to him...being a total GUY when I am around him....and now he was shocked to see me crying....he hand me tissues and jokingly said "I left the whole box of tissue that you asked me to bring in my car, you want me to go get it for you?" I told him I'll be okay a while later....nevermind about it....June said let that be the last song...no more singing and let's head to other places instead....
We paid off our bills outside at the counter and off we sit into Aifer's car......it's 9.30 and we have no idea where to head to...."I'll drive around and we can have our chats in the car aight?" "okay, sounds okay to me" "so what actually happen last night?" I told them the whole story, including what Dear had told me....."Shit that guy!" "I know I am pathetic as well....." "Just throw him away will ya....he's as useless as a junk" "Then?Then?" "I told him there cannot be two girls at the same time, if she's there, there will be no me, if I am here, then she can't be around, you only can pick one. it's either me o her" "Then what did he says?" "he still said he needed some time to leave that girl....he asked me to give him some time to settle everything" "SHIT la~wat a shit guy" "I wanna just leave cuz it hurts so bad, but it hurts even more to leave just like that...I mean there's still a lil hope isn it? I just want a hope I don care anything else" "so let's say he really wanted you back but he cant leave that girl...what are you going to do?" "I have no idea....I am totally lost I dunno wat's the right thing i should do now" "so you are giving him time?" "yea~lastly I said let's wait for 16th Sept to finalize everything" "why 16th Sept?" "cuz 16th Sept is his birthday" "aiks...grace...." "you remembered he keep on asked me what day is 16th Sept yesterday during dinner?" "yea*nod her head*" "and I kept said that it's TYT's birthday lor, Sabah's important day...he thought I had forgotten about it....but I never forget it....I've been waiting for it for the past few months...."
"*sigh*" "Who have expected it to end up like this today....it's pathetic" "it's not you, it's that guy that sucks" "so now you really gonna wait for 16th Sept?" "Yea,I'm gonna wait....I asked him not to phone me within these days and not to come look for me,I just wanna give both of us some time to really think...." "I won't be here that day" "how come" "I am going back to Singapore on that day" "Actually I am taking a risk, if let say he really can't afford to loose me, he will realized it within these few days cuz he's not allowed to find o call me until 16th Sept....but if he doesn't felt like that, it's sad and pathetic I just gotta accept the fact that he doesn't want me anymore" "What if something happen within these days?" "like for example?" "I dunno,only wat if...." "BTW, what did he said in returned?" "surprisingly he agreed...he was actually sobbing so hard he was suffocating the whole time...in the end I said like this to make him feel better....stupid me" "you always think the best of him first....you are giving him chance after chance *sigh*" shit that guy~ useless " "and he took the poem [The Road not Taken] for what?! like he was good in english and apparently a literature lover? *swt*" "ya wor...I totally forgot that poem already *swt*"
"why don't you asked for the girl?" "he don't wanna tell me anything." "shit la~ how come he still being so protective of that girl." "I wanted to know that girl so bad myself as well." "i think you should go ask about that girl, who the hell is she, i wondered if that girl even know about your presence."
"Wait for me baby~ I will settle everything within these days and be back....wait for my good news ya baby~Miss you so much" was the last words I heard that night....
what will actually happened on the 16th Sept? Should I expect it to be a good day? will there still be hope for me, for us? It's torturing to wait....cuz it's another two weeks.....
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